I recently discovered A Chronic Voice which is a great site for Spoonies to connect with one another. Each month, they do ‘linkups’ where there’s a prompt so you can write and connect with other chronic illness warriors. I think this is an amazing idea and I can’t wait to continue to do these! This month’s prompt is Recovering, Shopping, Enjoying, Reminiscing, and Preparing.
Since I am only 12 weeks post-op, I would like to think I’m totally recovered, but I know that’s not exactly the case! I still catch myself watching what I eat because food has caused me anxiety for so long that it’s hard to break that cycle. Mental illness isn’t something that gets talked about often, but I can’t imagine where I’d be in life had I not gotten help to deal with my crippling anxiety. Although my body is healed post surgery and is technically free of inflammation from Crohn’s disease currently, my mind is still healing and recovering from years of anxiety regarding food.
I LOVE shopping, but this year a lot of my Christmas shopping took place online while I was recovering from surgery. Since I was home for almost six weeks, I had a lot of spare time to get a head start on gifts I needed this year. I did go out Black Friday shopping with my mom and sister-in-law and had a blast, but I was already done with the majority of my shopping by then. I do plan on shopping some of the after Christmas sales to gather supplies and decorations for next year, at a discount!
Since my birthday is also in December, it is one of my favorite months. I love Christmas decorations, looking at lights, Advent traditions, cutting down our tree, and of course Christmas! This year will be the first time my husband, daughter, and I will be at our own house for all of Christmas day. We are looking forward to enjoying our first Christmas at our own house, being able to stay in pajamas all day, and just enjoy being with each other.
This is the first Christmas we are going to not be with my husband’s grandmother. Nana passed away in October this year, and although there are moments where the grief still tears at me, I have been reminiscing and remembering all the holidays we have gotten to spend with her. She comes up often in our conversations and we talk about all the amazing memories we got to make with her and all her witty sayings. I know she wouldn’t want us to be sad this holiday season, and so for that we are happy to reminisce on the amazing woman, grandmother, and great grandmother that she was.
2017 was a complete whirlwind for me. From being admitted into the hospital 4 days into the year, to battling a stricture in my small intestine the size of a straw all year, to having surgery, health-wise I can’t even believe I accomplished anything this year! But I definitely did! Our family took our first ever vacation together with some amazing friends, my Crohn’s team raised over $2000 towards Crohn’s research, and I somehow completed my first semester being a full-time student again while still working full-time. So now it’s time for me to prepare for 2018. In the coming year, I would like to find a workout program or exercise routine that works for me and my busy schedule. I would also like to find more time to read books and of course, I want to be told the R work…remission…!! I’m prepping for 2018 to be a great year and I can’t wait to see what or how I accomplish that!